yandao.com - Memoirs of a player wannabe

September 29th, 2006

RP Webcam Back Up

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

Seems like the school decided to pull the plug after it became too popular… - or maybe they just changed the addresses.

Still, will check it out and get back to you all :) Stay tuned! 

Okay, the webcams are back up! Somehow, when in RP, the cameras seem to lag real bad - from home it's okay :)

September 29th, 2006

What are lies, really?

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

Its amazing when someone lies to themselves without even blinking, as a matter of fact I lie to myself every so often, and personally, no offence, but I would think you do that, too; be it on purpose or unknowingly.

Before we start, allow me to share a little about my academic background in secondary school, first. I do think it's about time I told about my past, even though I'm used to saying that one's past is irrelevant:

  • - Invited to principal's office at least once every two weeks for doing silly things - such as messing with someone's Hotmail account, or provoking that big, ugly guy into a fight
  • - Attended only 28 out of 180+ days in school for the whole of Secondary 4 - O-Levels year, mind you.
  • - Too lazy to submit practical paper for a specific subject for O-Levels, hence, flunked it with an ABSENT grade.
  • ..and loads of other shady stuff…

Hence, I told myself, that I needed a change in life, and so, I thought back to that motivational seminar years ago, and drew up this list of goals, on some semi-discarded piece of notebook paper. Wow - your life goals on a piece of scrap =X:

  1. Goal #1. Become the top student of the school - yes, I know, its very dreamy…
  2. Goal #2. Get recognition and position for everything I do - be it just a simple blog, or a presentation, or just a small project
  3. Goal #3. Make $10,000/monthly by 18 years old

Ok. Realistic goals, but seemingly difficult to achieve. Back to the topic:

Basically, the logic behind self-deception comes when people want to justify something they do, which is grossly wrong, or obsene, even in the tiniest proportions, such as, what I'm doing now, staying up late, "researching" on a little stuff for this post (which you should see later on - below) and well, trying to refrain from very inviting thoughts of a place nearby you

- the one whereby you seem to drift into after your back eases into the matterss and your eyelids decide to tumble… You then begin to reach a state of calmness, where it seems you're free to do as you please, and your desires are conjoured before your very eyes…and that place, so meticulously described, is the very same place which holds you back when the buzzer on your cellular phone attempts to take control of the very first thing you do in the morning - waking up.

Then comes the greatest deception of yourself, the one which your innermost hopes are built up on - the hopes in which you were never aware existed.

If you would, close your eyes for a second, and ask yourself these:

Why are you hoping for things to turn out the way you want it to?

Why, is there even a preference of liking, for certain people in your life? Perhaps, at certain points of time, more than just a thought?

What are you going to school for? An achievement? Recognition? Compliance - following the advice of someone influential enough to you? Besides yourself? Perhaps people close to you?

What are you working towards to, then? Money? Friends? Family? or is it just a sense of satisfaction when Success arrives?

What do you want, ultimately, at the end of this journey of physical desires, and goals?

Then again, Are you really satisfied with yourself with just that?

What if that you can achieve twice or even thrice as much, just by knowing how to do so?

To be frank, I have a perfect Grade Point Average (GPA) of 4.0 for the previous semester, and I've already completed my Creative Engagement (CE) Requirements within the first semester of year 1 in Republic Polytechnic? For those who aren't in the school, the GPA is somewhat like score for your performance, from 0 to 4 - the higher the better, and CE would refer to points chalked up for attending events, talks and other courses or workshops designed out-of-the-classroom.

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Besides that, as of the day before yesterday, I am now able to sign off in my e-mails as "President" of a specific Interest Group, which currently has an intake of around 120 members. Yes, that also means e-mails to external corporations, school departments, and other "clubs" of the school. And yes, that feeling is great :)

Now, what if I told you that you could do the same for yourself?

…that it's NOT about what you know
…that it's NOT about what you can do
…that it's NOT about how much time you have
…that it's NOT about how knowledgable you are

But rather, it's about how you're willing to make the effort to try to get where you want!

That is what people look out for - HOW you got up there, not WHAT you are up there now as! People get motivated and inspired by successful others, for the very reason that those successful often seem to take the long, hard path to do so - They see a flimsy ladder leading to the top of a cliff, they know the ladder might fall at anytime and that they might have to climb up all over again, but still, they grab on to each rung, and pull themselves to the top. Only then, will they be able to feel the cool, refreshing breeze against their faces!

Do you want to get where you've always wanted to in life, maybe even in this miniature environment?

That's 2 out of 3 goals achieved, for me. When is the next one going to be fufilled? - When will you start working on yours?


Now, look at it this way. Maybe you've been telling yourself bad, negative things, that goals are lies, lies that will only occur in dreams and fantasies. But if that was true, then I'd just be relying on a very "reliable" lie to get myself where I am now, wouldn't I?

Think about it, and let me know in the Comments page if you're interested in working together, we can even form a team to help one another achieve their goals and wants! (click the "0 Comments" link, and have your say!)

September 28th, 2006

Dispelling Rumours

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

Okay, wait, before I come up with a decent post, I *do* see an urgent need to dispel the rumours being posted here and there, and of course, being chatted about in everyday blabber, which somehow, people tell other people, and then those other people, tell me.  I'm not everywhere in the place, but I still do hear things, you know. Wink


Rumour #1: "RP has put spy software on our computers, they can see whatever we're doing (when we're in the domain)! OMG!"
Clarification: Yes, and No.

Let me answer the part on "Yes" first - it *IS* possible for RP Staff / Administrators who have permissions in their servers - those machines which we all connect to (Technical term: Domain Controllers) - to connect in. In fact, there is even a "application*" called Remote Control in your Control Panel. You can find it at Start > Control Panel > Remote Control.

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* Technical term: The application is actually a Control Panel extension involved with the Microsoft SMS 2003 client. Google for it if you're interested!

However, NO, they don't *need* that program to "spy" on us if they want to! Since they have some really powerful rights (think of it as some power) on those servers mentioned above, rights which are called called Domain Administrators, they can basically run anything without our knowledge, through many ways, one of them being Advertised Programs. Sounds familiar? =X

Processes like cmmon32.exe are merely applications which "customize" RP network settings such as the RP Student VPN program - give it a beautiful logo, and make it look really "formal", don't read too much into them. For the technically proficient: If you do want a formal technical memory dump of the program, do contact me :)


 

Rumour #2: "After I visit Yandao.com, I got multiple popups?"
Clarification: Seriously, if I wanted to bug you with popups, I wouldn't have bothered offering to help everyone fix spyware. The popups probably came from your friend's or maybe even your thumbdrive. RavMonE.exe and mth.exe - sounds familiar when you press Control + Alt + Delete and choose Processes? There you go, spyware, a.k.a the "Thumbdrive Virus".

Oh, and the very proficient IT helpdesk people, the ones like Stanley and Richard, probably know how to fix it, just tell them the guy from Yandao.com said to look for:
HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\Software\Microsoft\Windows\
CurrentVersion\policies\Explorer\Run

in the registry, and for Services with Chinese names and no descriptions at times - They should be able to fix the rest with common sense, especially those 2 guys.

Better still - point them to this page! Hah! 


Rumour #3: "Why must type in password in the Photo Website? Dangerous!"
Clarification: We are "downloading" the photos from RP's webserver, also known as http://myrp.edu.sg or http://myrp.sg or http://www.myrp.edu.sg. Don't believe? Check out the source code, by Right Clicking on the page, and choosing View Source! Press Control + F to search for any of the above!

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You should see something like the above! If you don't understand what it means, I can always answer your queries through MSN :) 


 

Rumour #4: "Add another webcam in [insert location here], leh!"
Clarification: Sorry, I don't own the webcams, just borrowing the "views" from the school. Try asking OSG or OSC maybe? Perhaps they would do one in the dark dark staircase where the couple rumours came from……… =X


Oh, and 1 last thing, its a request from me, to you all:

Could you guys kindly use the "Comment" feature to post comments relating to the posts?
I *CAN* and *WILL* answer all comments that are entered and received by my site!

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Shoutbox has limited space, lah. But still, thanks for supporting!

September 27th, 2006

The All-Seeing Eye

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

No, that isn't some corny phrase I adapted from some fantasy/sci-fi novel.

Seriously, these few days, I've been hooked onto PHP programming, very basic, yet very fun. And I refer to example snippets for everything, too. :) I'm not your genius, nor am I your blur sotong who cannot figure out crap. Still, Kelvin presents you with…

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http://yandao.com/webcam/

This website basically allows you to view the publicly available (but unpublished so far) yet webcams around RP, and once again, you *NEED* to be an RP student, with your VPN account logged in, to view it. My apologies to those who are not from RP - maybe if I'm motivated enough, I'll code a VPN proxy to do that!

Have fun, guys and gals… and, when you see me in school, PLEASE SAY HI, NOT POINT POINT LOOK LOOK hor!  (!@#@$$^!!!!!)

September 25th, 2006

Politics in a Box

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

First, let me extend my deepest thanks to those of you who used the "Photo site " and liked it, and maybe met a new friends, found that old classmate of yours, or something like that. It was great working on it, and perfecting it - but really, the idea all started when *my* Lafina started getting bored at using the URL's to find photos. So, now you know what drove me :)

Oh, and yes, its actually even more fun when someone *asks* me to go there. LOL

Yes, I admit I'm a sucker for hits, and I am also a sucker for grades. I'll be frank - I'm a success driven person; Give me anything, I'll perfect it, and succeed without failure. Then I'll sit on it for a long, long time, and enjoy the sweet taste of success. No, it's about money, nor is it about the fame, its probably some "intrinsic motivation", as the school's, er, "holistic" syllabus calls it. *cough*

That said, I'm equivalent to your class asshole.

Wait. What? Just look at your class, that guy/gal who tries to make things difficult for others, giving little, or no chance for retaliation. Posing leading questions which you wouldn't know how to answer without Facilitator intervention would be one of those difficult little ways. Oh, and did I mention, it's again specifically targetted at similar people, with the exception that they don't play well as a team.

Enter Class Politics.

Wow. Something which probably isn't present in the conventional learning methods - teacher teaching, students studying, exams, and papers - yet present in our self-proclaimed powderful Problem Based Learning (PBL) system. Though somewhat similar to what one can experience in a working environment (I think I have enough work experience to make that statement, thank you.), this would no doubt consists of the usual backstabbing, gossipping, cliques, carrying of balls (or boobs).

It's all the same, really. We just want good grades. Now, instead of being the office slut, someone can be the class slut, dress specifically for a certain facilitator who's bound to notice, and give straight A's with guidance in all ways. Seriously, look at your class, even though nobody says it out, its being done. If you're one of those doing it, good work - you've just taken the easy way out. Too bad I rather work my way up the ladder - I don't like lifts ;), for the very reason that you never know when the "Mantainence" sign goes on. (errr, replace slut with pimp or something for the male version of the story)

That's when you're so screwed. Literally?

Though, the clever-er version of them actually takes a team approach, acting blur, getting others to do everything, then when BOOM - presentation comes, they suddenly know everything. Wow. How? Because they've already asked YOU the questions beforehand. Wow. I'm actually rather impressed with this method, you know.

Then again, there are others who say nothing and write out everything in the little ugly "comments" box… The ones who have a knife right behind you, and the very moment u take a step back by mistake, you should be ordering a casket service.

Soooo, in conclusion.. Everyone wants everyone elses' head. I present you, Politics in a Box!


Oh crap. Some ugly idiot/mofo has my MrBrown Tur Kwa T-Shirt too. Unless he identifies himself, I'm gonna strangle him for spoiling my DISTINCT UNIQUENESS and ORIGINALITY. What are the chances, as Jing Hui said on MSN, of 350 out of 4 million people, that I meet SOMEONE wearing the same damned shirt? Argh.

September 23rd, 2006

Reputation

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

Woohoo. The http://yandao.com/photo/ link has been growing super fast. Let's look at the amount of hits for… This month, ever since that website was launched: 4928 hits for YESTERDAY itself, Thursday! And I haven't counted today's - Friday! Whoa. That's alot to me, seriously. (ok, that hits referred to the photo website, my main page, slight rise, but we shall see ;))

Edit:

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Oh, after referring to Google Analytics, it seems that there are around 618 pageviews, so, on the average, YOU GUYS/GALS actually did around 8 searches EACH. WHOA. Who were YOU looking for?  

Edit #2: Oops. 618 was for Thursday, and for THIS blog, Yandao.com, not the photo site… For the photosite, Friday was around 4,415 views. Wow.

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Anyways, I also figured that people were reading, from what I heard from my friends, but few actually tagged or commented… Ah well, if you like the articles, then I'd be more than glad to keep writing, as in, sticking to the older theme =X Still, thanks - to all the guys/gals who spread the link to those they knew. A BIG THANKS! Without *YOUR* help, I'd be stuck with 0 hits.



Okay, also probably time I should get back to the theme: Reputation

What's with it, anyway? Isn't reputation something only high flyers have? Or perhaps that somewhat striking person (Read: Attractive) who always seems to get everyone - be it in your class, in your cliques, or maybe, even anywhere he/she goes - things just *tend* to go their way? Then suddenly you realise, wow, they have a great reputation everywhere - everyone knows them!

Wait, let's stop for a moment here. So, in order to get a reputation, you need to be Mr or Miss Perfect? Need to have great looks, great talent, or well, great features? HELL, NO. ANYONE CAN GET ONE.

Those currently in denial of themselves will then proceed to ask 3 questions, namely: "What!?", followed by "How?" and then "Cannot be?". Right.

Then, the school starts teaching us about personality types, how some personality types can attract others, and how we can all work together - using the DISC Test Method , which is sooo widely used by companies who're willing to spend in interdepartmental relationships. What the school didn't teach, however, was that you can change your personality, or at least, seem to, *very* easily. You don't need training, nor do you need experience, nor some expensive self-help book.

What you really need to do, right NOW, is to start believing in yourself. That's right:

Believe In Yourself

… for everything you do - that's right. EVERYTHING. Don't feel bad because you did something, rather, try to justify inside yourself how you thought when you did it. For example, if you just shouted at the facilitator in class, people would see you as defiant to authority; but how do you see yourself when you did that? Maybe that facilitator was overbearing and unreasonable? Thus it was your RIGHT to do so?

Turn everything negative which people *might* think about you, into your positive points. You are always right, because, you are already who YOU are… and when you believe in yourself, only then will others believe in you - believe that what you do is correct, and in turn SUPPORT and RESPECT you, for what you have done. Simple little things, simple little actions - such as why others laugh at your joke and not your friends' even though its the same joke! 

Think about it.

You've all along known about the solution, you just didn't want to apply it!


Pfft, enough with the philosophical stuff for you all to think about and perhaps, apply, if you like it.

I've been getting sooo much traffic lately, and suddenly, everyone knows me, yes, in real-life (RL) too. People actually come up to me and say, "Hey, that yandao.com SLASH photo website right, is my friend's friend create one leh! His name is Kelvin, same as you!"… I would then reply politely, of course, that I'm the Kelvin who did that =X

Then suddenly I meet people from all over, SA, EMP, Speak.Republic (SLA's in Republic Polytechnic, equivalent to CCA's, which are activities designed to keep us busy by the school) whom know me, but I don't really recognize. How come they all know I'm Kelvin? The faces seem reminiscently familiar, but I can never remember names, not male names, at least. Nor Chinese names, too.

Oh, and yea. Why does EVERYONE seem to recognize this shirt? I get at least 5 people each time I wear it identify it from where I bought it…

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I don't know. Maybe I'm getting some sort of a "reputation" here? Heh. Go figure, you all.

Also, for those guys/gals who labelled me BHB at the url of this blog, read the older posts. Maybe you'll understand how others think after reading them, and how a guy who has the capabilities to "play" actually thinks. :) If you still don't get it then…. well… MSN me @ hot_wired13 [at] hotmail.com, yea?

September 21st, 2006

RP Photo “Hack”

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

I always believe in Full Disclosure, for one simple reason - nobody takes anything seriously, not even security issues… Sooo:

http://yandao.com/photo/

Search for ANYONE in RP using their Full Name and Student ID

Oh, now you know who that gal/guy next door is. 

Note: NO passwords were bypassed, nor were there systems breached, nor were there any other loopholes exploited. Everything in that page can be found in PUBLIC DOMAIN if one looks hard enough. 

September 21st, 2006

Ah Beng Players

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

One more reason for me to hate Ah Beng Players, also known as ABP's.
(and yet, formally known as gangsters or kids who think they're so fucking big and think they can play, or 'buaya', or 'xian', or flirt, very well.)

Irresponsibility due to the lack of a fucking brain, or maybe common sense - for that very matter of fact.

Add this to the list of why I hate them already:

  • Underhand tactics - stealing from right behind you. cannot face fair competition, ar?
  • Giving crap reasons - right, so you do this because you have no choice?
  • Two-faced asshole - yea, smile to everyone, then stab everyone from behind
  • No brain. (er, not intellectual enough) - doesn't catch the damned joke and wants to pretend the person telling it is an idiot

Retards. Ought to be stoned.

Oh, if you do think that your friend(s) fit the very description, especially the part on having "no brain". Kindly speak to them about acquiring one - and tell them to avoid me at all costs. Else I swear they will be some pulpish mess very soon.

PS: Forgive my french, this *REALLY* pissed me off. 

September 19th, 2006

Luck

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

Luck, is one horrible thing to offend, because when you do, it hits you back in the most unexpected way. And yes, being superstitious at times does help a little, I think.

Let me mark yesterday as one of the unluckiest days of my life. Now, to elaborate! Laughing

Okay, in a nutshell, I went out with TurKwa IG members again: SOPhia and ZhenXiu! 

..snip from yesterday's hectic events..
10.30am - Started ironing clothes
10.40am - Realised black rubbery stains on white pants. Wow. That came from the iron - and guess where the print came from? My Billabong T-shirt.
11.05am - *Leaves house to wait for bus*
11.20am - OMG. Camera batteries are still in charger at home. *Runs home*
11.40am - Finally manage to take the batteries, and settle a few other small things which I forgot.
11.47am - *Runs down stairs because the lift didn't stop for me*
12.20pm - Hmm.. Why isn't the cab reaching Queensway anytime soon? Meter already states $16+!
12.30pm - Wow. Short road, eh? Traffic light cost $2.60, total cab fare WITHOUT surcharge = $22. Woodlands to Queensway that much?
..blah blah, everything goes seemingly fine until..
4.30pm - Tapped Ez-link card on wrong bus. Bus driver said only after I tapped that it was the wrong service. $1+ gone. (notice the forced smile) - Doesn't bus 402 go to Marina South? Hmmm…

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4.50pm - Wow. The floor of EVERYWHERE is extremely wet. A pity - the kite store was just right infront with soooo many nice kites for sale.. *Sighs* Bowling it shall be, then…

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5.00pm - Bowling @ Marina South! Threw loads and loads of drains (the sides.. when the ball misses) during bowling. 

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5.30pm - Since we still couldn't fly kites after bowling… We decided to try something more spontaneous..

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Of course, ZX and SOP opted to try the spinning thing we always saw on TV… 

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There were times when things got a little "lame"… (notice ZX's hand) 

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and maybe admiring the scenery:

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Oh, wait. Where was I again?

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Right, so now you know… 

7.50pm - Lost 2 rounds of number guessing while finishing up our seafood buffet @ Marina South. Had to finish loads of food.

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9.30pm - Had to send a silly Friendster message to Lafina without thinking first, and got her angry =X

I do think that as the day goes bay, I got more and more suay (local slang for "unlucky"). Maybe as stated by ZX, we should buy 4D. Each person comes out with $0.33. I'll pay the extra 1 cent since I'm the only guy and pay $0.34. We shall then by $1 worth of every number we like. Bwahahah~ I think sure can win, especially if we buy the time when all 3 of us started eating food somewhere near midnight… Heh. Maybe the Swensens wasn't enough the day before.

Still, yesterday was filled with much bad luck, even though, I had to admit, it was LOADS of fun! :)

September 18th, 2006

TurKwa IG Outing #2

Posted by Kelvin in Everything

Background:
TurKwa Interest Groups (IG), established somewhere in September 2006, has so far proven to be a success. The Interest Group had a certain special interest in Tur Kwa, the Hokkien slang for Pig's Liver. Actually, it's not really about the pig liver, but more to the unfortunate fact that Kelvin, here, happened to be wearing a Mr Brown Tur Kwa T-Shirt on the first day of our acquaintance. The IG currently has 3 members, Tur Kwa (me, Kelvin), Spicy Mee (Sophia), and Bak Chor (Zhenxiu). Their respective blog links can be found on the blogroll.

Outing Details:
Wait ar, let me cut the formal writing style, this one isn't a proposal or something, hor.

Basically, today would be our 2nd outing! And we promised each other photos.. Soo.. We took alot, but I'm very lazy to upload all.. Maybe if I get an uploading script.. Hmmmm…. 

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That's us! The 3 proud members of Tur Kwa IG. Go figure who's who. If still cannot figure out, visit their blogs, and read. Or else, ask me on MSN or something ;)

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Of course, since we're Tur Kwa IG, we needed food… Soooo.. Dim Sum!!! 

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..and then there's Chocolate Fondue with marshmellows and small fruits

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Oh, and yes, we decided to be patriots for a day, and visit the sights, where all the other races/tourists were gathering at. No, this photo wasn't stolen off some expat website.

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We took a very, very, long walk.. Past the Red Museum.. (or was it red-something-design museum?)

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Then after we explored Chinatown, it was time for Swensens… 

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Then this dragon came along. Paper dragon, or something, with nice shiny lights =X 

Okay. Bottom line is - We had LOADS OF FUN.

..and as all members of the IG states: I love TurKwa Gang! =D 

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